Zindagi itni badi bhi nahi jitni hum sochte he !!!!
I never knew that I will be left alone, I never knew that you will leave in between
When you were with me I never cared about you and always thought that “abhi to puri zindagi padi he” par muje kya pata tha ki tum muje aise chhod ke chali jaougi…
Jabhi tum muje bolti thi ki aap mere sath time spend nahi karte…..mere sath time spend kiya karo....to me kabhi usko seriously nahi leta tha…..muje kya pata tha ki…baad me time spend karne ke liye time to hoga par tum nahi hogi……aaj jab me pichhe mud ke dekhta hu…to sochta hu ki kash mene time spend kar liya hota to sayad muje itna aaj guilt feel nahi hota….par tum hi bolo koi kabhi aisa soch sakta he ki….kal tum muje chhod ke chali jaogi…..
Aaj tumko jake ek mahina ho gaya…par muje abhi lagta he ki waqt wahi theher gaya he…..jab tum thi to me apnne future to accha banana ke liye din bhar bhagta tha….par woh karnme present bhi thick se jee nahi paya aur future me to aab tum ho hi nahi….
Jab tum thi muje kabhi nahi pata chala ki ghar ki chhote chhote kam kaise hote he….aur tum meri har chhoti chhoti jarurat to pura kar deti thi…..jab me subah uthta tha to chai ready hoti thi aur tum rakabi me chai leke aati thi….mere kapde dhul ke press kiye hue rehte the….nasta aur dabba…ke bare me kabhi mene nahi socha….par aaj…………..jab me uthta hu to sochta hu ki me utha hi kyu…..muje uthne ki koi wajah hi nahi dikhayi deti he……
me hamesha apni hi zindagi jita raha…aur tumhe taken for granted leta raha…aur sochta tha hi…tum to rahogi hi he hamesha mere sath…..par aisa nahi hua….na to me thick se tumhe pyaar de saka aur aab jab muje realise hua to me kuch nahi kar sakta…..
Aage me kya bolu….kyunki na me bol paunga aur nahi tum kuch sun paogi…
|Posted by amitkawa on January 26, 2019 at 9:55 AM||comments (0)|
Exactly one year and one day back at this time, saddest and may be biggest decision I took, when doctor told me that your mother is no more . Can we remove the ventilator?. When I saw it , it was like mom is still breathing and I asked doctor she is still breathing. At that moment doctor told me that ventilator is pushing oxygen in dead body and hence you feel she is still breathing. She pointed me to to cardiogram machine where heart line was 180 degree.
I was th...Read Full Post »
|Posted by amitkawa on January 26, 2019 at 9:55 AM||comments (0)|
Which is the best feeling in the world? Different people will give different answers for this but one thing I must guarantee is whoever is father of daughter they will say only one thing that best feeling in the world is to be father of daughter.
This blog is about recent experience shared by one of my friend who is father of 6 year old daughter and it immediately touched me because I am too father of 6 year old daughter.
To be very honest I used to envy him bec...Read Full Post »
|Posted by amitkawa on August 19, 2018 at 11:25 AM||comments (0)|
Amare to vaat bhi nathi Jovani !!
( I don’t even have option to wait )
Kaifi Azmi wrote very beautiful song on situation of pain in waiting:” Zara si ahat hoti he to dil yeh sochta he, kahi yeh who to nahi”
When your loved one is away for longer time and you are desperately waiting for them to meet and how you have lost your patience this songs perfectly express feeling felt by them. Whenever I listen to this...Read Full Post »
|Posted by amitkawa on January 24, 2018 at 1:05 AM||comments (0)|
Death is ultimate truth of life, we all know but we dont want to die or our loved one dies. My mother died and i m still under truama. This experience taught me many things about life.
1. Life is always here now, coz tomorrow we dont know wether we would be there or no your loved one would be there.
2. My mother was dying from last one year and we all knew she would not survive more than one year but when that Ultimate moment came we all collapsed. I stil...Read Full Post »
|Posted by amitkawa on April 21, 2016 at 5:20 AM||comments (0)|
New TV serial on sony tv with fantastic concept. It says “chamatkar unhi ke sath hota he jinke mann me vishwas he”
Also questions why miracles not happening with us and only with few peoples why we can’t have faith in almighty like others have. Leads to very interesting question and dilemma. As far as I can think of we became so much educated and sophisticated that we try to find the logic or science behind everything and second most important thing is, I ...Read Full Post »
|Posted by amitkawa on December 26, 2014 at 3:55 PM||comments (0)|
Pk what an outstanding movie, not a new concept though used in the earlier movie OMG but Picturisation and storytelling ability of Mr.Hirani simply amazing.
PK is asking certain simple but very logical questions in the movie,which i also tried to figure out the answer when i was in my early 20s.
Questions like , who created us? Where is God, why different individual follow different God with different paths. Al...Read Full Post »
|Posted by amitkawa on November 19, 2011 at 5:20 AM||comments (0)|
In the year2003, when I read this line for the first time in the novel GODFATHER Icouldn’t understand the actual meaning of this line. However over period oftime and having lived life with ups and downs I understood this line insomeway.
Every humanbeing is born here to do some specific task, roles and in that big task they dotheir daily activities. I mean, all humans have very specific things to do andthey are best in doing that. Once they start doing that they get phenomenalsucce...Read Full Post »
|Posted by amitkawa on July 14, 2011 at 6:16 AM||comments (0)|
One day twoexperience.
In the morning as usual I was going to my office,I saw crowd at my area where people were gathered and murmuring something. I quicklyunderstood that there must be death of somebody since there is hospital in myarea so this is quite common phenomenon in my area within 3-4 months. But to mysurprise this crowd was not gathered near the hospital this was gathered in thesame building where young boy about 23 years of aged died in Mumbai local tr...Read Full Post »
|Posted by amitkawa on April 19, 2010 at 7:58 AM||comments (0)|
We have only 2 options……either we can be GOOD or we can be HONEST….
It is very difficult to to choose between these two phenomenons. most of the people choose to be GOOD because that is the easy and comfortable way to move ahead in life,on the other hand people who choose to be honest are always left alone in the society and they are generally not as successful as people who choose to be GOOD.
Then what to do…should we choose to be GOOD and bec...Read Full Post »
|Posted by amitkawa on April 14, 2010 at 5:11 AM||comments (0)|
Lonely or Alone....what is the difference between these words....
if we look in the dictionary....it will give you almost same meaning...but i have realised that...these two words have great difference...
lonely means you are missing someone and you are sad or you are not happy....it simply means...you wanted to be somewhere else but you are not...or you wanted some1 to be with you but they are not with you...
on the other hand....Alone...Read Full Post »